Thursday, March 29, 2012

No so growing-pains

Today a visit to the social services office took every bit of my energy from barging through the doors to refine the process.

When we entered, we were #5 in line and there were 2 windows serving the awaiting crowd. As I sat waiting for our turn for 2 hours, I was appalled to see the sorry state of affairs. The employees were busy chattering, drinking coffee and surfing their phone instead of serving the long line of new moms with wailing infants, aged citizens barely managing to walk and distraught workers who were losing precious pay for every extended minute! Our state has been subject to significant budget cuts and there have been roaring voices over the lack of resources to help social services, well, if I were to tape today's incidents and replay it the Governor, maybe he will see that incapacitated and lazy fools are sitting on desks instead of ornate well accomplished individuals who can serve the citizens and raise the overall benefit of the state and increase much needed production. For the kind of service rendered today, I'd say, its easier to outsource the entire unit for a much faster turnaround instead of painfully waiting in line for a person to take your papers, stamp a seal and wave good bye.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Working Mom's Saga!

It is amazing how realization strikes when kids begin to stop and ask you to think about your actions.

We have been dealing with significant work related stress at home and I find the challenges of work – life balance has been significantly altered. Ever since kids became a part of our equation, I have sought to set my career goals limited to a 10 hour work schedule with sufficient time to dedicate to my children, but lately, I have realized that irrespective of the flexibility you seek, current economic conditions do not offer the luxury of a truly flexible schedule. Working 3 time zones and being on calls at odd hours of the day, I think lack of sleep, combined with the difficulties of raising good kids and adding housework has resulted in a distraught situation all around!

This morning, we came to realize our folly and now, as I sit working, I am divided between my duty as a mother and that of a professional tasked with a significant delivery on Mon. To add to this trauma, travel is a part of my agenda and I cannot help but feel guilty over my situation. I know I need a job to retain mental sanity, but cannot let go of my family time either. I want the best of both worlds and feel the need to enjoy both luxuries under my rules!

Is this an eternal conundrum faced by all working moms?

Working Mom's Saga!

It is amazing how realization strikes when kids begin to stop and ask you to think about your actions.

We have been dealing with significant work related stress at home and I find the challenges of work – life balance has been significantly altered. Ever since kids became a part of our equation, I have sought to set my career goals limited to a 10 hour work schedule with sufficient time to dedicate to my children, but lately, I have realized that irrespective of the flexibility you seek, current economic conditions do not offer the luxury of a truly flexible schedule. Working 3 time zones and being on calls at odd hours of the day, I think lack of sleep, combined with the difficulties of raising good kids and adding housework has resulted in a distraught situation all around!

This morning, we came to realize our folly and now, as I sit working, I am divided between my duty as a mother and that of a professional tasked with a significant delivery on Mon. To add to this trauma, travel is a part of my agenda and I cannot help but feel guilty over my situation. I know I need a job to retain mental sanity, but cannot let go of my family time either. I want the best of both worlds and feel the need to enjoy both luxuries under my rules!

Is this an eternal conundrum faced by all working moms?

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

My angel heart

There is not a moment in my life that I don’t think of her and the warmth she brings to m heart cannot be described by words! She is my daughter and my first born!
She has blossomed into a charming personality with a niche for creativity and freedom in her heart!

When she was younger, I constantly worried over her insecurity and inadequacy to deal with the harsh realities of life. The mother in me cried and cringed as she hurt deep inside, but I see all those stumbling blocks have made her stronger and braver and she is now ready to accept challenges and stand her ground!

As she progresses to evolve, I see myself slowly changing roles from a mother to a friend, a confidant she can rest her shoulders and cry on. I know the road ahead is challenging and we will have many mother-daughter moments, but for now, I just want to say, ‘I love you sweetheart and will always wish the best for you’.

My angel heart

There is not a moment in my life that I don’t think of her and the warmth she brings to m heart cannot be described by words! She is my daughter and my first born!
She has blossomed into a charming personality with a niche for creativity and freedom in her heart!

When she was younger, I constantly worried over her insecurity and inadequacy to deal with the harsh realities of life. The mother in me cried and cringed as she hurt deep inside, but I see all those stumbling blocks have made her stronger and braver and she is now ready to accept challenges and stand her ground!

As she progresses to evolve, I see myself slowly changing roles from a mother to a friend, a confidant she can rest her shoulders and cry on. I know the road ahead is challenging and we will have many mother-daughter moments, but for now, I just want to say, ‘I love you sweetheart and will always wish the best for you’.