I am manifested by outrage, anger and helplessness! I feel much incapacitated with the situation around me. As a mother, I am challenged by the pain another mother is enduring. As a woman, I am agonized by the trauma the family is facing and as a daughter; I see the conundrum in her face.
Why is humanity so inhumane at times, I wonder? Troubled waters escape no family, but such ill effects, I am yet to see. I have begun to see everything in new light, today I learn from a mother, who is a warrior that puts Prithviraj Chauhan to shame. Her courage and strength is of paramount significance as she sees her child lying helpless waiting for the testament of time to give its verdict! She bathes her child with love and affection but her eyes carry the pain of a thousand needles. Today as I write this I wonder, why are women given so much strength? I want to be weak, I want to cry and drown my sorrow or I want to wield a Herculean wheel to retrace time. I am confused, my head tells me accept, but my heart argues! I still believe in miracles and pray for one to occur this instant.
In a world of hatred and disgust, why are good souls penalized? Or is it that, by taking away the good elements, we are left to battle with the bad and outdo each other? All these questions are unanswered as I continue my quest for the ultimate truth, but for now I understand, there really are no strings attached in this world! Truly, some wise head did say, ‘Man Proposes God Disposes’!
Monday, February 28, 2011
Monday, February 7, 2011
Inspiration
Inspiration, such a power packed word! Entire childhood and youth went by learning to draw inspiration from famous personalities. Sometimes it was Einstein, while others, Da Vinci. Marie Currie or Newton, a constant debate! I cannot laud my science skills as anything beyond normal. I read, understand and move on. I had no visions of extraordinary theories nor did I find myself gifted for inventions.
I was amidst really smart and intelligent people who could think outside the box and it made me wonder why I lack such talent. I would gaze in awe when I read about Da Vinci being both a physicist and an artist. But with all this, I was missing something. Was it an innate need to drive myself to climb the invention rope or sit back and see the world around me and learn from it.
The glories of everyday life have hit me just it has so many others. My mind seems to be bogged down by work schedules, kid’s activity calendar and household chores. All my dreams about the Da Vinci’s of the world have ceased. But this past weekend, something stirred within. An unrest, something that I have felt a long time ago, but haven’t had the time to dwell upon!
Last year a close relative of mine was diagnosed with a dreaded disease. Just as we were celebrating a win in the combat, it ambushed us. Its ugly face has been following her like a shadow putting her whole life in turmoil. This past weekend, I had the luxury of spending a comfortable afternoon with her. I say comfortable as I saw her calm and relaxed after a week of pain and agony. It was a glorious day and the Sun was upon us like a guiding light. In that light, I saw the spirit, her spirit; one that wanted to fight and beat the odds. Having lost a friend recently after she bravely fought for her child, I was convinced she was fighting for her kids too. We got to talk, we spoke about the ways of the world and laughed about the silliest pranks our kids played. Oh, did I forget to mention, we have kids the same age. Then she said, “ I want to live. I am selfish, I want you all. I have a family a few would get and I am going to fight and beat this”. It was very spirited. I made me feel the inspiration in her and today I stand inspired. I felt a bond, something sacred we had shared. As I taught her daughter to write, I found myself smiling as something in me felt that one day, we will teach our daughters together! You are a true inspiration sweetheart! Fight and we will fight with you too!
Today I stand corrected, its not just famous personalities imparting inspiration, its people from everyday life who strive to make it in many way that guide us to make life better and share happiness. All things material, stand alone, but its the memories of everlasting love that brings a smile to your face and warmth to your heart! That my friend is true inspiration!
I was amidst really smart and intelligent people who could think outside the box and it made me wonder why I lack such talent. I would gaze in awe when I read about Da Vinci being both a physicist and an artist. But with all this, I was missing something. Was it an innate need to drive myself to climb the invention rope or sit back and see the world around me and learn from it.
The glories of everyday life have hit me just it has so many others. My mind seems to be bogged down by work schedules, kid’s activity calendar and household chores. All my dreams about the Da Vinci’s of the world have ceased. But this past weekend, something stirred within. An unrest, something that I have felt a long time ago, but haven’t had the time to dwell upon!
Last year a close relative of mine was diagnosed with a dreaded disease. Just as we were celebrating a win in the combat, it ambushed us. Its ugly face has been following her like a shadow putting her whole life in turmoil. This past weekend, I had the luxury of spending a comfortable afternoon with her. I say comfortable as I saw her calm and relaxed after a week of pain and agony. It was a glorious day and the Sun was upon us like a guiding light. In that light, I saw the spirit, her spirit; one that wanted to fight and beat the odds. Having lost a friend recently after she bravely fought for her child, I was convinced she was fighting for her kids too. We got to talk, we spoke about the ways of the world and laughed about the silliest pranks our kids played. Oh, did I forget to mention, we have kids the same age. Then she said, “ I want to live. I am selfish, I want you all. I have a family a few would get and I am going to fight and beat this”. It was very spirited. I made me feel the inspiration in her and today I stand inspired. I felt a bond, something sacred we had shared. As I taught her daughter to write, I found myself smiling as something in me felt that one day, we will teach our daughters together! You are a true inspiration sweetheart! Fight and we will fight with you too!
Today I stand corrected, its not just famous personalities imparting inspiration, its people from everyday life who strive to make it in many way that guide us to make life better and share happiness. All things material, stand alone, but its the memories of everlasting love that brings a smile to your face and warmth to your heart! That my friend is true inspiration!
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